Life Update: Postponing Our Wedding

I’m feeling an incredibly overwhelming amount of emotions right now but the top ones are heartbreak and anger. If you don’t know my fiancé is Japanese and we have been waiting for about a year for his visa to be approved to the US so we can get married. Well we’ve had his flight booked for about 6 months, for yesterday.

Yesterday, I was supposed to pick up my best friend and partner from the airport. On sunday the customs lines at JFK O’Hare and Newark were about 6-10 hours with people trying to return to the US. When we saw that and the idea he’d have to be in such close quarters with people who could potentially be sick we decided to postpone everything.

This was one of the hardest decisions we’ve ever had to make as a couple and we knew it would be very hard on our relationship. I haven’t seen him since november and all I want right now is to hug him. I was being selfish for a long time by just wanting him with me here during all this madness. But after letting that go I knew it wasn’t safe for him to fly, I knew it for a week before but I didn’t want to believe it.

I’ve spent the last two days just crying non stop because it hurts so much. I don’t know when this will all go away and he can come here. I do know we will be strong and make this work. I do know that even though we are far apart he will support me and i will support him.

The reason I’m writing this is like a journal for me but also to ask everyone to please take this seriously. I saw so many young people I know going to cafes and parks but that’s dangerous, maybe not for you but for the elderly or immune compromised. Please be safe